Lessons from a walnut tree.
I dreamt last night I discovered walnuts growing on a tree in our backyard. In the dream it was a tree that had always been there but somehow I didn’t know it was a walnut tree. Now they were literally falling off it, already pre-roasted and unshelled; ready for eating. They were so tasty and nourishing and I remember eating handfuls in the dream and feeling so happy and contented.
When I recalled the dream I was making breakfast in our sunlit kitchen, listening to Carl Pannuzzo and Penny Larkins new CD ‘The Cradle’. They were singing Simon Nield‘s beautiful lullaby “Cradle Song” and gradually all the pieces coalesced into a gentle epiphany.
That walnut tree is all the relationships I’ve been blessed with and cultivated and sadly still sometimes doubt (including Carl, Penny & Simon and especially my gorgeous husband Steve). I realised once again how much do or die anxiety I carry around with me. How will my next album be received? Who have I offended or neglected? What do I have to prove? Why can’t I get organised to work harder?
And yet if I stopped and rested, took a walk in the backyard of my own inner circle I could dicover it anew. A wonderful tree that grows there all covered in fruit, exhorting me to stop and refresh myself.